motherhood

I was just ready for him

October 15, 2014
Baby Dan V in Navy Hoodie

I was really scared about becoming a mom. Like real scared. I literally told my husband, IV, that he better be ready to take care of this baby on his own because I may check-out of the whole thing.

The truth is children terrified me. I was convinced that I’d be one of those people that did not love or bond with their child. I definitely wanted a family but was more of the mindset to skip infancy and adolescence and go straight to the well-adjusted adult child part.

This may explain why I really enjoyed this quick article by Jenny Mollen for Cosmopolitan “The Moment I Fell in Love With My Son”. (You may know her husband, Jason Biggs, of American Pie fame among other projects like Orange is the New Black/OITNB). She directly addressed my thoughts and fears. Babies? Yeah, not super into them. Second Thoughts? For sure! I’m almost to the ‘finish line’ but am I really ready for this? Um I’m thinking no.

With this line she says it all…

“I wasn’t ready for kids. I was just ready for him.”

Now that Dan V is in my life, I think back on how much energy I wasted being anxious and worried. I may not have been ready for kids, but I was definitely ready for him.

LV ♥

-JLVR

P.S. She’s also all about breastfeeding and one of her favorite selfie accessories is her pump, which is kind of awesome from a celeb. You can find her on Twitter and Instagram.

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1 Comment

  • Reply Sarah October 20, 2014 at 2:19 PM

    Hi Jess!!

    I LOVE your site!! 😀 Very creative and well thought out – just like your us(ual).
    I wish I would’ve known how you felt about this – I’d loved to have talked about it! Us moms need to unite sometimes. 🙂
    Anyway, I’ve found the opposite to be true for me somehow. I knew I was going to like being a mom since age 12 (weird as THAT is haha) and have generally love kids all along. Once O was born, there was a subtle yet very distinct feeling of, “Man, those other kids that aren’t my kid… sooo annoying.” Probably just the new-mom-totally-biased-of-your-own-kid syndrome though!!

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